Friday 25 September 2015
Tuesday 22 September 2015
Stress
I feel stressed like sh*t,
the prospect of being a team member in one of the fellowships, in an uncomfortable zone, drain the energy 100% out of me
It is like being dragged along by the neck, through rocky, steep mountain slopes, Or crushed by 1000 tonnes of stone, or just being buried in the ground, face down.
The prospect or the certainty of facing major rejections in applying for placement year, the prospect of going back to Malaysia, the prospect of being stretched - out of comfort zone, the prospect of forcibly being extrovert when I'm not, the prospect of "why the heck did i joined the Hong Kong ppl"
All these really stressed the sh*t out of me
recently I'm rejected for a scholarship. I guess it't the beginning of rejection.
Let God's will be done, on earth as it is in heaven
God is in control
Do my best, expect nothing, let God do the rest
God's ways are higher (Isaiah)
Stressed weh, my dad just sent me an email detailing a common story of how wishful Malaysians who wanted to migrate abroad got dragged back to Malaysia, to fulfil God's plan and purposes. God closed the doors of Hannah Yeoh in Australia so that she can come back to Malaysia to serve as a Member of Parliament.
Am I Joseph/Daniel or Moses? Do I stay or go back? God wants me to stay or back? I have no idea and I really don't want to go against the Lord
God, I'm open to anything, as long as you are with Me
Amen
the prospect of being a team member in one of the fellowships, in an uncomfortable zone, drain the energy 100% out of me
It is like being dragged along by the neck, through rocky, steep mountain slopes, Or crushed by 1000 tonnes of stone, or just being buried in the ground, face down.
The prospect or the certainty of facing major rejections in applying for placement year, the prospect of going back to Malaysia, the prospect of being stretched - out of comfort zone, the prospect of forcibly being extrovert when I'm not, the prospect of "why the heck did i joined the Hong Kong ppl"
All these really stressed the sh*t out of me
recently I'm rejected for a scholarship. I guess it't the beginning of rejection.
Let God's will be done, on earth as it is in heaven
God is in control
Do my best, expect nothing, let God do the rest
God's ways are higher (Isaiah)
Stressed weh, my dad just sent me an email detailing a common story of how wishful Malaysians who wanted to migrate abroad got dragged back to Malaysia, to fulfil God's plan and purposes. God closed the doors of Hannah Yeoh in Australia so that she can come back to Malaysia to serve as a Member of Parliament.
Am I Joseph/Daniel or Moses? Do I stay or go back? God wants me to stay or back? I have no idea and I really don't want to go against the Lord
God, I'm open to anything, as long as you are with Me
Amen
Thursday 17 September 2015
Wednesday 16 September 2015
What I learnt from working
This is my experience, working in food service industry
1. There will be arseholes, like really bad and rude attitude: Proud, arrogant, busy body, just arse
2. There will be people who worked like horse and still not being paid deservingly
3. You are new, you will be blamed for everything, even if you didn't do anything wrong. Anything goes wrong, your fault. No time for explanation. Nobody cares your side of the story
4. There will be people telling you what to do, bossing around (even if they're technically the same level as you)
5. There will be racism
6. Language barrier is a big problem
7. By God's grace there will be someone who will look after you, making sure you are okay
8. You will be exploited
9. The only solace is the wages
10. There will be gossips, backstabbing and betrayal,, in order to climb the ladder
1. There will be arseholes, like really bad and rude attitude: Proud, arrogant, busy body, just arse
2. There will be people who worked like horse and still not being paid deservingly
3. You are new, you will be blamed for everything, even if you didn't do anything wrong. Anything goes wrong, your fault. No time for explanation. Nobody cares your side of the story
4. There will be people telling you what to do, bossing around (even if they're technically the same level as you)
5. There will be racism
6. Language barrier is a big problem
7. By God's grace there will be someone who will look after you, making sure you are okay
8. You will be exploited
9. The only solace is the wages
10. There will be gossips, backstabbing and betrayal,, in order to climb the ladder
Thursday 10 September 2015
My thoughts on Migrant crisis in Europe
For some reason, this issue attracted my immense attention. I would search for news about it almost everyday for the past few weeks. I will read almost every major and tabloid news, especially the comments section where I can understand how the general netizens think.
If I am a white Briton born in the UK, I would probably be high on nationalism right now. I will fight all the way to preserve the British culture in the UK, stopping immigrants from taking over our jobs and altering our beloved culture and Christian heritage. But no, I'm just a Malaysian student studying in the UK. This essay is written based on what I saw on the news and reflect upon.
Since the implementation of the Schengen area, EU citizens are experiencing the highest level of freedom in movement than ever. The abolishment of border control between Schengen countries has revolutionized the lifestyle of average Europeans in terms of travelling.
According to the Schengen area visa requirements, citizens from countries like Pakistan, Afghanistan, Iraq, Syria, Iran, Eritrea, Libya, Nigeria...etc have to obtain a visa prior entering the Schengen countries. However, the European Union has a generous policy for refugees and asylum applicants. Refugees are entitled to apply for asylum. However, one should note the difference between refugee and migrant. By definition, refugees are people who are escaping from war and instability. Migrants are people moving from place to place.
The sad thing is that, I reckon most UK citizens (or at least from DailyMail keyboard warriors) generalised that migrants are Muslims, illegal, scoundrels, benefits claimers and are here to steal jobs and destroy the British culture. There is a distinctive difference between illegal migrants and legal migrants. Not all migrants are Muslims; not all migrants are illegal, not all migrants are scoundrels; you get the point.
The funny thing about UK is that any person from EU can come to UK to look for job and to stay indefinitely. In other words, any idiot from EU can stay as long as they wish in the UK. On the other hand, non-EU citizens have to go through strict work visa application in order to stay in the UK for a maximum of 5 years. Hence, some of the brightest talents are not even allowed to enter UK. You will get the picture that UK in a sense that is open to idiots in EU and rejecting bright minds across the globe. Comparing the immigration policy of Australia, USA and UK, it is obvious that Australia and USA are more welcoming towards highly-skilled workers compared to UK. Australia and USA are fair in terms of immigration policy. No matter where you're from, as long as you're talented, you're more than welcome to work in Australia/USA and contribute to the economy. In UK, it is more biased towards EU citizens. Hence, even highly skilled workers from USA, Canada, Australia find it difficult to obtain a work permit just because these countries are not in the EU.
Back to the refugee/migrants issue. A true refugee will seek refuge in safe country. They will flee from countries of wars to countries with peace. Hence, true refugees will be more than happy to stay, apply for asylum, start a new life in any safe countries. But why are these "refugees" are forcing their way to Germany? Isn't Greece and Italy or Hungary safe? They resorted to breaking the law, riot, violence and protest in order to exercise their "right" of getting free food, shelter and passage to Germany. No, these are not refugees. These are economic illegal migrants. Strictly speaking, refugee status only apply to people fleeing from wars in Eritrea and Syria. The migrants from Pakistan, Afghanistan, Libya, Nigeria...etc are economic in nature. They came over to Europe for better opportunities in life and wealth. It is easier to get into Europe as a refugee than being an average worker trying to obtain a work permit. This crisis has offered the economic migrants a backdoor to enter Europe easily without having to meet the requirements as any work permit applicants do. If I'm from Pakistan, I will see this as a great opportunity to get into Europe (especially Germany) easily without having to go through all the tedious and strict visa applications. I'll just throw my passport away and fake myself as a Syrian.
I know I am so cold hearted with regards to the migrant crisis. It is undeniable that many lives have been lost in searching for a greener pasture. If only the government of every country curbs the illegal activities of human smugglers into Europe.
These are a few suggestions on How UK can respond to the migrant crisis:
1. Get out of European Union. The quota allocation of refugee as suggested by Germany's chancellor will only bring more harm than good.
2. Apply similar immigration policy as Australia and USA. This will lead to economic growth as only the brightest and highly-skilled migrants are able to come in and work. Brain gain is good for any country, especially UK.
3. Strengthen the border control. Any intruders from Calais will be prosecuted and locked up. (it sounds cruel but I think that will give a clear message to would-be illegal immigrants)
4. Above all, don't take in "refugees", Take only real refugees. But be careful on the numbers taken, because I am sure that there will be endless influx of "refugees" into Europe.
These are a few suggestions on How EU can respond to the migrant crisis:
1. Strengthen the borders please. When the borders are impenetrable by pathetic law-breaking "refugees", they will stop coming in large numbers, eventually.
2. Build more UN refugee camps across the middle east and africa. I believe it is better than providing benefits, shelter, jobs for 800,000. Dealing with the root of the problem is the cure.
3. Stop the war in the middle east. End of war=no more refugees. Kurdistan a country. No more ISIS, division of land according to Islamic sects, stop blaming Israel for every bad occurance...etc. But I think this is never feasible.
I just hope for the best for UK. You are in my prayers.
If I am a white Briton born in the UK, I would probably be high on nationalism right now. I will fight all the way to preserve the British culture in the UK, stopping immigrants from taking over our jobs and altering our beloved culture and Christian heritage. But no, I'm just a Malaysian student studying in the UK. This essay is written based on what I saw on the news and reflect upon.
Since the implementation of the Schengen area, EU citizens are experiencing the highest level of freedom in movement than ever. The abolishment of border control between Schengen countries has revolutionized the lifestyle of average Europeans in terms of travelling.
According to the Schengen area visa requirements, citizens from countries like Pakistan, Afghanistan, Iraq, Syria, Iran, Eritrea, Libya, Nigeria...etc have to obtain a visa prior entering the Schengen countries. However, the European Union has a generous policy for refugees and asylum applicants. Refugees are entitled to apply for asylum. However, one should note the difference between refugee and migrant. By definition, refugees are people who are escaping from war and instability. Migrants are people moving from place to place.
The sad thing is that, I reckon most UK citizens (or at least from DailyMail keyboard warriors) generalised that migrants are Muslims, illegal, scoundrels, benefits claimers and are here to steal jobs and destroy the British culture. There is a distinctive difference between illegal migrants and legal migrants. Not all migrants are Muslims; not all migrants are illegal, not all migrants are scoundrels; you get the point.
The funny thing about UK is that any person from EU can come to UK to look for job and to stay indefinitely. In other words, any idiot from EU can stay as long as they wish in the UK. On the other hand, non-EU citizens have to go through strict work visa application in order to stay in the UK for a maximum of 5 years. Hence, some of the brightest talents are not even allowed to enter UK. You will get the picture that UK in a sense that is open to idiots in EU and rejecting bright minds across the globe. Comparing the immigration policy of Australia, USA and UK, it is obvious that Australia and USA are more welcoming towards highly-skilled workers compared to UK. Australia and USA are fair in terms of immigration policy. No matter where you're from, as long as you're talented, you're more than welcome to work in Australia/USA and contribute to the economy. In UK, it is more biased towards EU citizens. Hence, even highly skilled workers from USA, Canada, Australia find it difficult to obtain a work permit just because these countries are not in the EU.
Back to the refugee/migrants issue. A true refugee will seek refuge in safe country. They will flee from countries of wars to countries with peace. Hence, true refugees will be more than happy to stay, apply for asylum, start a new life in any safe countries. But why are these "refugees" are forcing their way to Germany? Isn't Greece and Italy or Hungary safe? They resorted to breaking the law, riot, violence and protest in order to exercise their "right" of getting free food, shelter and passage to Germany. No, these are not refugees. These are economic illegal migrants. Strictly speaking, refugee status only apply to people fleeing from wars in Eritrea and Syria. The migrants from Pakistan, Afghanistan, Libya, Nigeria...etc are economic in nature. They came over to Europe for better opportunities in life and wealth. It is easier to get into Europe as a refugee than being an average worker trying to obtain a work permit. This crisis has offered the economic migrants a backdoor to enter Europe easily without having to meet the requirements as any work permit applicants do. If I'm from Pakistan, I will see this as a great opportunity to get into Europe (especially Germany) easily without having to go through all the tedious and strict visa applications. I'll just throw my passport away and fake myself as a Syrian.
I know I am so cold hearted with regards to the migrant crisis. It is undeniable that many lives have been lost in searching for a greener pasture. If only the government of every country curbs the illegal activities of human smugglers into Europe.
These are a few suggestions on How UK can respond to the migrant crisis:
1. Get out of European Union. The quota allocation of refugee as suggested by Germany's chancellor will only bring more harm than good.
2. Apply similar immigration policy as Australia and USA. This will lead to economic growth as only the brightest and highly-skilled migrants are able to come in and work. Brain gain is good for any country, especially UK.
3. Strengthen the border control. Any intruders from Calais will be prosecuted and locked up. (it sounds cruel but I think that will give a clear message to would-be illegal immigrants)
4. Above all, don't take in "refugees", Take only real refugees. But be careful on the numbers taken, because I am sure that there will be endless influx of "refugees" into Europe.
These are a few suggestions on How EU can respond to the migrant crisis:
1. Strengthen the borders please. When the borders are impenetrable by pathetic law-breaking "refugees", they will stop coming in large numbers, eventually.
2. Build more UN refugee camps across the middle east and africa. I believe it is better than providing benefits, shelter, jobs for 800,000. Dealing with the root of the problem is the cure.
3. Stop the war in the middle east. End of war=no more refugees. Kurdistan a country. No more ISIS, division of land according to Islamic sects, stop blaming Israel for every bad occurance...etc. But I think this is never feasible.
I just hope for the best for UK. You are in my prayers.
Wednesday 2 September 2015
Honest Thoughts of the day
I knew I am so wrong for thinking like this and not grateful. I knew I should focus on the bright side, I knew I should be more positive and don't be too concerned about self-image
I am feeling more and more unhappy at work. I got this job because they are desperate for more people in the store and they happen to find me. That's it. I get blamed for most of the wrong things that I didn't do (although some I did do accidentally haha)
I feel very bad, low self-esteem, why? Because most of my friends are engaged in pretty professional internships, while I'm doing this job, serving food.
Worst part is that I have to face the people I know, I really hate it. I really want to separate my work, friends and studies. But in most cases, they will overlap. And the less worst part is, the coworkers all speak Korean. The manager don't like me because I'm stubborn (and probably I got face problem), and I don't work on Sundays.
Then, got one worker I particular don't really like, because he likes to screw me, for small little reason. I don't know why probably I'm chinese hahaha. Most of the time I did nothing wrong on principle, but he will still screw me for blocking his way, not doing things according to his ways etc. To be honest, I don't like to cuss but this guy made me think that all Korean men are arseholes. Probably I'm an arsehole to them as well haha. Don't know la, but I really don't like him hahaha. He likes to screw me, that's the breaking point and that's the moment I realized I need to quit. Because I'm not happy.
I don't like the fact that I can't understand what they say, especially when I know they're talking about me.
I hate meeting the people I know in the restaurant, it made me feel so bad. I don't want them to see me in a 狼狈 situation. I got my ego, I don;t want to be seen working in this menial job hahahaha. But that's not fair to my coworkers. I need to be proud of where I'm working. Hence, I should be more positive and receptive.
Hong kies,, haiz. Why did I decided to join them. Now 2 hong kies will come back early. And Hong kies have the reputation to look down on people and comment like shitty negatively. YEP Hong Kong is the best, and Hong kies are the smartest. When they see me working serving them, I will feel very very weird, seriously. In fact, I will feel very awkward to respond to their surprise. Yes, I stay over the summer just to work in this shitty job, yes I'm screwed. I'm not in some good ass internship because I stupid, happy? It is super weird for me to see myself in a fastfood restaurant outfit, serving my friends. Super awkward and weird (because I looked down on this occupation)
The only good part from this job is that I'm able to get some money, and occupy myself for the summer. That's about it I guess. I have to get over the fact that I'm doing this job. I have to thank God for the opportunity in this job.
I can't wait for the last day of my job, and ,... Freedom! End of slavery ahaha. But I 'll miss the money.. hmmmm
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