Introvert

Seriously, I am an introvert. Is there anything wrong with that? I can't make frens quick. I need time to see thru their heart, and make a few close friends, not a bunch of fair-weathered friends.

Alright, parents and teachers condemned me for being antisocial. I mean, that is my personality. You guys are pressuring me out. Yes, I know the benefits of being socially active. But I don't want to be fake just to please my parents. My parents are introverts themselves, what do you expect from your children? You can't get grapes from a fig tree.

Parents, I know you want me to be better in public relationship. But I really needed time to adjust, need time to train up myself. Stop comparing me with other kids. Yes, some people are born, brought up with good social skills bcoz their family environment encourages that.

To be honest, my family is never the "popular" type. We do things secretly, like a dark horse, achieving success and give glory to God, Nothing to boast about.

If you ask me why am I quieting there alone, not talking to anyone, or being too quiet,,,, actually this is my way to adapt to new society. Actually I am not quiet, I just seemed quiet.

So please, stop pressuring me to talk more or faking myself just to be the "most socially active" guy.

studying BIO, CHEM, AKAUN

Ok, these three subjects are my weakest. I am totally stressed up now. I have no guarantee that what I studied today will be in memory for next week's SPM. It sucks when all the information goes to short term memory instead of the long one. I totally 4got how to make akauns, how to make salts, what diseases....etc... Hey! I studied oledi for trial, but now I 4get again. Yes, they say i shud relax. But deep down i know if I dnt study I will sure fail, I will not make it.

Anyway thank God for everything. He will pull me thru

8 down, 4 more to go

today i had just finished physics paper. Honestly, it is very hard. hm.... I felt very very stress the day before. I am all stressed up. But once it is over, i am high up on the moon.

No use worrying the things that are yet to come, just trust the lord, place all burdens to him. He keep his promises, he is faithful, he never forsake me. I am sure of his goodness and blessings. I can't stop but praising Jesus' name. Yes, he grant me the peace that nothing on earth could offer.

Sometimes I felt abandoned, but Jesus is always there. I cant see him, but I can feel him inside. God give me strength to go thru the hard papers

Now tis is my BIG BIG problem: I submitted my US visa application with lots of lies. Now I redo again. Later I scare i cannot go to US bcoz of Visa problems. I am worried.

Everytime I face a BIG BIG problem, I know God is BIGGER BIGGER.

Imagine Peter walking on water. If he had total focus on Jesus instead of the horrendous sea, he might no sink. The main thing is not the ability to walk on water and succeed, but to trust Jesus in every circumstances.

The main thing is not 12A+ in SPM, but to trust Jesus for his guidance. In every circumstances, the focal point should beon  how great and almighty Jesus is, not How terrible my problems is. Siewlan told me that Jesus will never put you into a situation without providing a way out. He will provide strength, in the process, we learn, moulded, purified and become better.

Though sumtimes we felt that Jesus left us, but he is always there. Oh Lord, may your peace bestow on all SPM students for the coming subjects

Sluggish

1 week holiday made me sluggish, lacking motivation to study and no exam mood. I am worry. But casting all the worries and burden to God is a good choice. 

God will never leave us nor forsaken us. Just trust in him, do our best in SPM, n he will help us. He is good God. 

Let his name be glorified thru our SPM result. A ll glory to God. Let's praise his name

Lacking Motivation to Study

Yes, next week is SPM, I still procrastinating to study. I have no motivation, don't know why. I prayed that God will help me in my studies, but if I am so lazy, what can I do?

My heart is not in the books, it flies away. I dont know if I am studying right or not

Biology is hard, very hard. I am afraid that someday I will blame Facebook, Blog, Youtube for dragging my results down

Too much leisure, make me sluggish
Without leisure, I am rotting, the efficiency of studying is very low.

So, finding the optimum leisure time is very very important.

I am worried, But i shudnt.

I felt guilty everytime I relax. Haih

tired of studying

I hate studying, frankly

Hate it

But they say working life is much more terrible

Anyway I shud be thankful right now

Being a teenager, I eat, shit, sleep for free. No nid to worry about financial problems

But.... I am dying of boredom. Can you imagine having nothing to do for one whole week? Yes, I need to study. But I'm on the verge of getting crazy. Having nobody to talk to, nothing to do except for studying is driving me nuts, seriously, nuts!!

Even walking around the house is a fun activity for me compared to studying. I feel so anti-social. Nobody talk to me. Everyday the same routine. Now I understand how granny felt, or how other left-alone children felt

Boredom is malicious, Boredom is fatal.

I surf the web for nothing. Everyday is the same: YOUTUBE, FACEBOOK, WIKIPEDIA, RANDOM NEWS,  BLOG..................... seriously, i miss school days now

Loved to study

I keep bluffing myself:" I love to study!!"

Study is fun

Study is good

Study is like an entertainment

I can't live without study

I love to study every hour, every day

I can't wait to study a whole new interesting chapter

Study is like a piece of cake

I will miss studying when SPM is over.

That's how i cheat myself, motivating myself to .... study harder

I hope I can study smart. By God's wisdom, well, let's pray for that