Diary of thoughts

I have been working during the summer, as a fast food restaurant worker.
Should I be proud of it?
hahaha
My friends all have professional work during the summer, like lawyer, bank interns, etc
Me? In a restaurant! hahaha

but anyways, I learnt alot during the work.
However, it's an all korean working environment, and not so friendly as well. I get traumatized everytime I work there, because misunderstandings sure will happen, very very stressed up indeed. They don't care

Some more I don't speak korean, and some of their english really sucks (not that I'm good haha),
I don' understand why they acted that way until like just now I research abit about racism in South Korea. Apparently, it's very deeply rooted in the society. South Korean men are mostly (men first) ideologically minded, And Koreans in general hate Chinese and Japanese, due to history. They also look down on other nationalities due to the economic might of south Korea. Koreans in UK, especially the older generation, don't really want, or need to learn English. In an area in London known as New Malden, high concentration of Korean owned business made it unnecessary for Koreans to learn English if they live in that area.

Or maybe it's my face problem? I faced a lot of problems, stigmas and even verbal abuse from them. Not speaking Korean is a big disadvantage. Aiks.
Sometimes I feel like I will be raped everytime I go work. Raped by middle aged person with emotional abusive words and racism.

My biggest fear isn't actually the work, but it's the fact that I will face lots of familiar faces when I serve customers. I hate seeing familiar faces. The biggest challenge for me is to actually face the people I know and serve them food, I really hated it. I really really hated it. What to do? Why? Probably because I'm ashamed of this job. I shouldn't be.

Worst case scenario is that the snobbish poeple I know saw me being told off or scolded in the restaurant hahaha

I know God is with me