I have bitterness issue. This bitterness has become a considerable emotional burden. I need to be more mature. But I don't have the EQ or the capacity to do so. The goal is not to remove bitterness, but how to deal with it. I think I know the source of my bitterness:
- A Hong Kong student who likes to show off
Sure, nobody is perfect. But something about him just pissed me off and annoy the shit out of me. But then again, I think this is caused by my own pride as well. I want to be the only chinese guy in the worship team. I want to be the only chinese guy in the young adults group. I don't want another competitor. This is petty and frankly stupid. I will face a lot of this kind of person in my life in the future. Better to know how to handle it now, maturely, than to affect my family members and children later on, In the midst of this, I know I can trust God. His burden is light.
I'll try not to be affected and wish the best for him. After all, he is God's beloved child and I am not suppose to see myself higher than him. I shall wish everyone the best and not put any hurtful comments, although they hated me. I shall wish my enemy well although they slap me. This is the heart of Christ which I want to imitate.
