Yes, I am betraying the yellow people haha.
Yes, I know I have to be proud of my own race, nationality and skin colour. But yet, sometimes I hope I am white.
I wish I am white,
So middle aged white lady will not look down on me
I wish I am white
So I can gain the confidence of other white people
I wish I am white
So I don't feel inferior talking to church members
I wish I am white
So I won't be labelled as Chinese pig
I wish I am white
So I don't seem like living in a parallel society when hanging out with my own ethnicity group
I wish I am white
So I don't need to make the double effort for integration
I wish I am white
So I can be myself, not forcing myself to be talking alot in order to "mix" well
I wish I am white
So any rude East-Asian looking tourist will not make me a bad stereotype
I wish I am white
So I can be rid of prejudice
But in the end I'm just a typical Malaysian Chinese, who is never truly welcomed in Malaysia or abroad :(
